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Ambiguous Grief

by Berator

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1.
Reinvention 01:52
I've got a story for you, get out there and give me war Watch this in terror as I tear through my ego I've got the armory now who's going to stop me You claim you can see everything When you're asleep we'll rip your god damn eyes out Our dreams are dead, or dormant at least There is no peace, only violent suffering
2.
Cultural Rot 02:15
Back at it again with a vengeance It's time to really kill this fucking planet Silicon dreams of the future flow through me There is a noose with everyone's name on it At the center of every town on this planet Silicon dreams of the future flow through me Cultural rot, you will be eliminated The blood of human failure will stain the bones of the earth I have been formed With death on my conscience Careless and sound You will reap of our bliss
3.
(Skulk) 02:40
Your secrets are carnivorous Consumed with your contagious ends The tapping never stops It's inside the walls Your secrets are conspicuous Reveals for your ascendancy The tapping never stops It's inside the walls Your derision makes me feel like something Your derision makes me feel alive Your secrets are carnivorous Let's watch them eat you alive Your secrets are conspicuous You just have fun with the lie The tapping never stops It's inside the walls The tapping never stops It fills out your flaws Your derision makes me feel like something Your derision makes me feel alive Don't worry about me Wading through never-ending crisis There's nothing quite like it Wading through never-ending crisis Your secrets are carnivorous They're either hunting you or me
4.
Delusion I 00:26
5.
I used to see the world like it was black and white I wish you could erase the person I would become I don't associate with what the mirror shows me I wish you could erase the person I came from Back on the anger, condemned and consuming The nightmare continues A swarm of endless dark, confusing what you know Perpetual unrest To break the spirit down, filled in with spiraling doubt I have no choice now I promised I'd get better It's hard to make a choice now I figure I'd have done better I already burned out Sand straight through a glass palm Self defeated from day one Collapsing into candle light Back on the anger, condemned and consuming The nightmare continues A swarm of endless dark, confusing what you know Perpetual unrest To break the spirit down, filled in with spiraling doubt
6.
Delusion II 00:54
7.
Internal screaming doesn't take the place of silence It seems like every day gets emptier from trying I am so sick of losing all motivation Give me a reason to see reason to find it This mist like purgatory And nothing feels like anything This mist like purgatory Dreams won't begin and the nights never end I am so sick of losing all motivation Give me a reason to see reason to find it I have been drowning in ambiguous grief Will the suffering stop and will I ever find peace Why care about the people you leave behind It's not your problem anymore and soon it won't be theirs right
8.
Delusion III 01:15
9.
Flicker 01:30
A flicker of darkness is all that it takes To set things to spiral, defiant escape A flicker of shadow erases the wake I don't think I'm looking through ease of your pain But I never found you so can you forgive me If I never find you how can you forgive me Killed our messiahs Replace them with statues
10.
Delusion IV 00:35
11.
We are as mindless as the plans that we make They’re only hopeless I thought I’d find you here but here was empty Truth fell contagious Walking an imaginary shoreline Can you hear We are such a mess Life’s endless cruelty What's between us is a hurricane Blink for a moment and we're back to the wind We saw the landfall in slow motion No one is ready when the truth is in the ocean I suspect only the cancer is real Caustic and careless It takes the place of what you thought you could feel Completely recessed Walking an imaginary shoreline Can you hear We are such a mess Life’s endless cruelty
12.
Why give up worship When you can still be hateful His love enables your behavior Now reap this harvest The blighted hell that you grow His love enables the contagion I love the way my faith heals through the television A holy book replaces empathy so easily Who do you pray to when your god is ashamed When all that you've done is look the other way If your identity turns hearts into triggers How can you raise your head and ask for forgiveness Now we know that empty hearts make way for murderers Now we know that hands at prayer make the best for murder Faith in man is disappointment Faith at all is an affliction Faith in man is paranoia Faith in god is a delusion

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released July 15, 2022

Recorded at the space and the basement
Engineered, mixed, and mastered by Berator

Additional vocals on (Skulk) by Ryan Völfman Bilunka

Cover art by Berator, set design by Avery

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